over exposed

i'm back, finally after finals week and driving home. but i've had my fair share of stress since i've been home. but the main point of this post is that i'm feeling over exposed, and not when it comes to telling my story, but when it comes to trichotillomania on TikTok.

i went to look for clips of the patient with trichotilllomania on Grey's Anatomy to talk about on my podcast, but i didn't find any. what i found instead was exposure to videos of people pulling their hair, and clips of seeing what induced a fit of hair pulling for myself. i guess that's why i wear my wig especially in my posts, it's not out of shame or trying to get more views, it's because i know how seeing that affects me. that's why i try to avoid making pulling motions in my videos. i know what would induce the behavior in myself and i prefer to avoid the idea of doing the same to others.

i try to spread awareness without doing more harm than good. i find it much more beneficial to talk about what's helped me in hopes to help others.